It’s been a whirlwind. Within days, multiple people asked me about my business plan. Business plan? What business plan? Oh I need a domain? Wait, buying a domain doesn’t buy me a website? I need a website? I don’t know how to build a website. Forget that, what am I going to call my company? How am I going to brainstorm a clever tagline? Coming up with a logo? I’m not a designer, I can barely draw stick people. And on, and on. And on.
Rabbit hole. Cue the “not good enough” gremlins and their friends, the “who do you think you are” gremlins; in short, I’ve been in a tailspin. When my mind becomes fixated on a problem/challenge/opportunity, it is nearly impossible to shut my brain off. I borderline obsess until I’ve worked out something that “feels right”. It is a blessing, and a curse.
Nearly 72 hours later, and I have: bought a domain, named my company, designed a logo, created a tagline and started a website. Do I have any idea what I am doing? Not a clue. I’m just going with the momentum, because I know that this is the way forward.
When I was in San Antonio last month studying with Brené Brown to become a Certified Dare to Lead ™ Facilitator, I walked all over downtown in 101 degrees trying to find a journal to purchase. The only one I could find was shimmery gold. Totally not my color, but I had no choice if I wanted to get what was in my head out.
After transferring all my DTL notes, re-reading The Gifts of Imperfection and writing down every quote that resonated with me, I realized I would quickly run out of processing space. I needed to buy a new journal. But it couldn’t just be any journal, it needed to be just right. Enter Papyrus. I bought two. Love, love, love.
And it’s true; this is only the beginning for me. I was joking around with someone today and said my life is really broken down like this: BB and AB. Before Brené and After Brené. Except I’m not kidding, not really. In so many ways, the DTL training saved my life – more on that later.
I was reminded this week that it isn’t very often that I’m not 15 steps ahead with a detailed plan. #planner In this moment, I am trying to figure out the next step and there are no guarantees. Vulnerability at its finest.
QOTD: “Belonging doesn’t require us to change who we are; it requires us to be who we are.” ~Brené Brown, The Gifts of Imperfection
Mood: Faithfully – Journey
Share: Have you had a moment in your life where you were trying to figure out the next step? Did you choose courage and take a leap of faith? What was the outcome?
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